This will be the final week of lectures for the year; I can't believe how quickly it's gone. Of course, there are exams to go, obviously (there are always more exams), but it still feels like yesterday that I was walking into the medical school for the first time. I remember it so vividly; I was listening to The Fray's 'How to Save a Life,' on my iPOD, and felt my eyes welling up with tears as I walked in, feeling like I had reached the end of a long and difficult journey... only to realise I had walked into the engineering building by mistake, prompting one swift about face and two red cheeks.

While I'm amazed at how much I've learned in one meagre academic year, this year has really served to show me how great my ignorance is. I can see now why medics and doctors are constantly being examined - it is such a vast subject which is constantly evolving and changing, and ignorance is not acceptable. It is a huge responsibility and I am only just beginning to realise the necessity of keeping it highly regulated.

As I suspected, I will have one resit in July, although thankfully it is for a subject that I didn't really study for in the holiday; there are lots of people on my year who failed exams that they worked very hard for, and I think that must be so much worse. While initially I was absolutely gutted to have failed an exam, I am also learning to give myself a break; my background in English, not science, and I hadn't done any for five years when I began the course. I managed to pass all of my science-based exams, when many of my peers didn't; for me, that is still a great achievement, and I should feel proud of what I have accomplished.

I still feel like a fraud here, and even if I pass my resit and make it back for next year I suspect I still will; however, I think I will try to enjoy the ride a little more from now on; after all, there's still four years to go...